Break Downs and Passions
I've been having a series of break downs last couples of weeks. Precisely after the lock down started. It's just that I've had lots of time on my hands and hence lots of time to think. It's quite nice if you have something to think about. I had a different problem. I had million thoughts racing through my mind a second. I was thinking about everything and essentially nothing at the same time. But it's not uncommon, it has happened before, only differences was I could go out to distract myself. But now I can only stare at the screen for only so long before I start to see my reflection on the screen. Then suddenly reality, the only thing I'd be running away from, hits me. And all kinds of emotions starts to rush in and I start to cry. After few minutes when I pull myself together I try to remember why I cried and I realize I have no freaking clue. That's one of my many kinds of break downs recently. It's true what they say - you can never escape