Stories Of My Life

                Do you walk around feeling you know everything and there's literally nothing else that you can learn about (even though you subconsciously know you have literally no skills to get a job) or have you at least been there? What do you call it? Being a teenager or being stupid?           I mean even if we take out the job factor I still do walk around like I freaking know everything. I fool others so easily. Because for most of the part I go along and try to throw one or two sentences in just to show that I know what I'm talking about or what's being discussed. I haven't even thought this blog through, I'm going with the flow. Or what my parents call, half-assing. Between you and me? I think they are probably right. If I knew I would be writing this at 3 in the morning I wouldn't have believed it myself. But here I am writing everything down because I'm pretty sure I won't remember a thing in the morning. So what was I doing the whole day? I

          I've been having a series of break downs last couples of weeks. Precisely after the lock down started. It's just that I've had lots of time on my hands and hence lots of time to think. It's quite nice if you have something to think about. I had a different problem. I had million thoughts racing through my mind a second. I was thinking about everything and essentially nothing at the same time. But it's not uncommon, it has happened before, only differences was I could go out to distract myself. But now I can only stare at the screen for only so long before I start to see my reflection on the screen. Then suddenly reality, the only thing I'd be running away from, hits me. And all kinds of emotions starts to rush in and I start to cry. After few minutes when I pull myself together I try to remember why I cried and I realize I have no freaking clue. That's one of my many kinds of break downs recently. It's true what they say - you can never escape