Stories Of My Life

      It was around 6 in the evening. Like always, I was binging one of my favorite shows and was completely lost in it. I had my placements going on and I knew in the back of my head that at one point I should stop doing this and start preparing for placement. I was completely oblivious to my surroundings and had only one thing in my head that after this episode I'll stop watching and start studying.        After finishing that episode and unwilling to open a book just yet, I started checking my messages. I opened my WhatsApp and saw a few messages in groups that I did not want to respond to. I moved to the status bar and started scrolling down. One of my classmates had posted a picture of a friend in her status. I opened her status to check what it was. She had posted a picture of my friend and written R.I.P, and I instantly thought it was a bad joke she was trying to pull on us. In a minute my best friend texted me and we were chit-chatting and mak...

                Do you walk around feeling you know everything and there's literally nothing else that you can learn about (even though you subconsciously know you have literally no skills to get a job) or have you at least been there? What do you call it? Being a teenager or being stupid?           I mean even if we take out the job factor I still do walk around like I freaking know everything. I fool others so easily. Because for most of the part I go along and try to throw one or two sentences in just to show that I know what I'm talking about or what's being discussed. I haven't even thought this blog through, I'm going with the flow. Or what my parents call, half-assing. Between you and me? I think they are probably right. If I knew I would be writing this at 3 in the morning I wouldn't have believed it myself. But here I am writing everything down because I'm pretty sure I won't remember a thing in the morning. ...

          I've been having a series of break downs last couples of weeks. Precisely after the lock down started. It's just that I've had lots of time on my hands and hence lots of time to think. It's quite nice if you have something to think about. I had a different problem. I had million thoughts racing through my mind a second. I was thinking about everything and essentially nothing at the same time. But it's not uncommon, it has happened before, only differences was I could go out to distract myself. But now I can only stare at the screen for only so long before I start to see my reflection on the screen. Then suddenly reality, the only thing I'd be running away from, hits me. And all kinds of emotions starts to rush in and I start to cry. After few minutes when I pull myself together I try to remember why I cried and I realize I have no freaking clue. That's one of my many kinds of break downs recently. It's true what they say - you can never escape ...

        Yes. I had a Journal when I was around 15. Well it lasted for less than 4 days. Not that I stopped writing. Only that my sister tore it up into pieces and it was in the garbage the next morning. When I asked her, she told mom asked her to do it. I wasn't shocked honestly.        How many people have told you to start a Journal? Too many right? Or Nobody? I didn't know why people used to keep Journals. Is it so hard to remember what you ate today morning , after 20 years? It's not. It's freaking easy. So why do we need Journals. I remember I used to think that I will, for sure remember what I'm feeling right now as I'm walking down the road next to my crush. I don't have to write it down. I feel funny and I'm gonna remember it forever.         But I don't think I remember it today or maybe even the day after that, about what I exactly felt. I even forgot who that person is. I'm not saying that that was the defining momen...

              I know I haven't written in almost a month, but due this lock-down everyday is same as the one before. There is no change and hence nothing to write about. I've been spending lots of time studying and streaming movies like everybody else. Actually I just finished watching a movie right now and that is kind of what prompted me to write this post.      Have you ever seen a movie where the protagonist is a huge mess but someone comes along and it'll all get better in less than half an hour? How can you have not. It's basically a sub-plot in every movie ever made. I've seen more than my share of movies and this was always the sad after thought. I mean, will my life be a mess till I find someone too? Until then what? Give up?       That sounds too sad, I know. But it also made me think if, all it took was noticing the mess in our life and trying to make things straight, why haven't we already done it. It means I c...

    Hi all, thanks for coming here. Like many other blog post I'll be writing about my life here. So what makes it different? I am a writer and I see life in different light. I've had ups and downs and also a steady life. I don't particularly have an interesting life but I make it interesting. I'm funny, sarcastic and little mean. I use it to get through any boring situation in my life.     I'm a movie buff so you'll be seeing a lot of references to classic movies and maybe I'll tell you about some of my favorite one's if you want. Because I have seen all the movies from late 1920's to recent one's and now I have nothing else to watch. So I moved on to TV Series. Since I have a month free due to the pandemic I intend to watch only those which have less seasons. I had already watched F.R.I.E.N.D.S and I loved it. When I wanted to watch something of the same sort Google recommended me to watch The Office but it is so long and has so many epi...